Shri Rajagopala Deshika Charitam II Vol III Book X Chp 17 Shlokas 13 - 18
केन सृष्टं जगदिदं केन वा परिपाल्यते |
केन वा ह्रियतेsप्यन्ते कोसौ कुत्र वसत्ययम् ||
तमेव द्रष्टुमिच्छामि बाल्यात्प्रभृति दुःखितः |
तथापि मे नेत्रपथं नायाति भगवान् किल ||
अस्ति चेदीक्ष्वरो विष्णुरायत्वस्मिन् दिने स्वयम् |
नास्ति चेदिह सिह्मस्य भवत्वन्नञ्च मे वपुः ||
अनीक्ष्वरो तु लोकेस्मिन् जीवनान्मरणं परम् |
इति निक्ष्चित्य मनसा निषसाद महावने ||
गर्जन्ति स्म मृगास्तत्र सर्पन्ति च भुजङ्गमाः |
नगन्त्युलूकगृघ्रादयाः पक्षिणक्ष्च महावने ||
घोरेण तमसा व्याप्ते नरसञ्चारवर्जिते |
द्रष्टुकामो हरिं भक्तः प्ररुरोद सुदुःखितः ||
'Who is the creator of this universe? Who is its protector? Who absorbs it? Where is He? From my childhood, I sorrowfully long to seee Him. But why has not Bhagavan come before me? If it is true that Lord Vishnu exists in reality let Him come before me today. Otherwise, let my body become a prey to the lion in the forest. If the existence of God is doubtful, it is better to die than to live on this earth'. With this resolution, he was sitting all alone amidst the deep woods. In the frightening forest, the wild animals were roaring and snakes were moving here and there swiftly. Wild birds like owls and eagles were producing a big noise penetrating the atmosphere. In that desolate, deep, dark and thick forest, he was crying in despair with the thirst to see Lord Hari.
