Shri Rajagopala Deshika Charitam III Vol III Book X Chp 18 Shlokas 14 - 22
गृहचिन्तां परित्यज्य वनान्तरमुपागतः |
जजाप कोटिशो नित्यं राममन्त्रं दृढव्रतः ||
तथापि राजगोपालो न लेभे रामदर्शनम् |
अवाप दुःसहं तापं सीताsशोकवने यथा ||
कदाचिद्विपिने घोरे सर्वत्र तमसाकुले |
भगवद्विरहाक्रान्तो मरणे कृतनिक्ष्चयः ||
विस्मृत्य पत्नीं पितरौ शरीरं जीवितं तथा |
विषञ्च जग्धुमारेभे राम रामेति कीर्तयन् ||
तदा तत्रैव भगवान् काकरूपधरो हरिः |
आगत्य त्वरया तस्य हस्ताद्गरममग्रहीत् ||
विज्ञायेक्ष्वरसङ्कल्पमेवं गोपालदेशिकः |
सान्त्वयन्नात्मात्मानं पुनः प्राप गृहं स्वकम् ||
अर्चावताररूपं तु प्रतिष्ठापय रघूत्तमम् |
पूजयन् भार्यया नित्यं चकार सुखजीवनम् ||
येनाकेनप्रकारेण कुटुम्बमपि पालयन् |
कालक्षेपं चकारासौ रामकैङ्कर्यतत्परः ||
श्रीराम राम रामेति कीर्तयन् प्रलपन् रुदन् |
पठन् रामकथाञ्चैव रामभक्तिं चकार सः ||
He gave up the concern for his family, reached the forest and with unflinching devotion, carried on the chanting of Rama Mantra many crores of times. Yet, he could not get the darshan of Shri Rama. He was aggrieved like Sita Devi, when She was in the Ashoka Cana. Once, he became so desperate that totally oblivious of his life, body, wife, parents and all, afflicted with the sorrow of separation from the Lord, he decided to take poison, chanting the Divine Name of Shri Rama in the midst of the dark forest. When he was about to drink the poison, Bhagavan Hari arrived there in the form of a crow, and picked up the poison from his hand and flew away. Gopala Deshika understood now the will of God. Thus consoling himself, he returned home. He installed a moorti of Shri Rama at home and spent his life happily performing regular Pooja of Shri Rama. Somehow, he was able to fend for his family. He led his life with the only ideal service to Shri Rama. He served Lord Rama and developed his Rama Bhakti, chanting the Name of Shri Rama, crying in love and reading at ll times the story of Shri Rama.